Explain or digest?
Wednesday, March 31, 2010, 3/31/2010 10:29:00 PM
I'm confused regarding what I should do when a situation arise.
If a stuation arise, would you make a stand to defend yourself or look at the problem and digest it?
I am the person who will choose the latter because I feel that if I can digest it and the situation can die down and goes off, I doesn't have to waste so much energy to think about it. But it makes me feel that I have let myself down by not trying to speak up for myself. And in the first palace, I am not very good in explaining.
Maybe it is time that I sould master the skill of analytic explaining so that when situation arise, I can choose what to do.
Cheers~
*.*"
Human just have to look at things more lightly and openly to live more happily
Monday, March 29, 2010, 3/29/2010 08:13:00 PM
Today, I went to gym and sweat like a running tap because the whole building was out of air condition. So I guess we were roasted inside out from the morning to the afternoon before the shower came and somehow, cool the temperature.
Dad didn't come and fetch me home today and so, I used the public transport. It is always good to take a bus as I just have to plug in my ear piece, absorbing the essence of the music and let my thoughts wander- into the feeling that is inside me.
There is always an uneasy feeling building inside me. The unknown future; the wants that you are afraid of not getting; the unwants that you are afraid of getting. And all this leads to stress, depression, anxiety. But then, a phrase pop up in my mind, "Human just have to look at things more lightly and openly to live more happily." Yup, I guess it is true. You don't have to haggle over stuff that spoils your day or stubborn about something that makes you mad. Take for example, my office environment seems to be warm and friendly on the outside but raging and boiling on the inside (or maybe I just think too much) and the future seems bleak ( my guess or maybe not). And how I diffuse this feeling is by telling myself that no matter what it comes, just take it as I just have to live through for 2 years, wipes my backside and walk off. I always encourage myself to gain and learn everything that I can, build up my confidence and stress level in this hostile environment and hopefully by the end of the day, I have grown stronger mentally which can make me a better person on the outside working world. So everything can be seen lightly if you are willing to let your mental take control of the situations.
The music that was played in my ears somehow brought me back to the good old days. For example, "Lucky" brought me back to the days in adventure Club, executing the training plans on every Thursday or having a great chilling bonding session in a Chalet. You just feel that it will be so great if everyone put down everything that is in their hands right now and come out and have some wonderful days like before. But time don't flow backwards, so we just have to create more of this moment to have more of this great memories.
Talking of friends, I feel that i'm not a good friend in terms of my character or emotions. Likewise, I may see others' flaws too. But what do you call someone that you only know about his merits but not his faults? I called it friendly instead of friends. By being friendly, you
tried to show only the good but hide the bad. But for true friends, you don't have to hide. You will be your genuine self and control your bad emotions by the advise of your friends. And I am very grateful to fate that I have some very funny, amusing, wild, exciting, wonderful, tenderloving friends! I believe that the best day with my friends would be during a starry night, sitting on a floor mat that is on top of a lush grasspatch, with wind blowing through our hair that has already turned white, watching our grandchildren running around, catching one another while talking about the boomzy great old days!
I guess I have talked a lot which is enough for submission as my composition. A bus ride really makes me think a lot. But it is a good thought =D
Cheers~
*.*"
25hrs a day- I hope
Wednesday, March 24, 2010, 3/24/2010 12:27:00 AM
Saturday was supposed to go Sentosa to tan with Iguides but was cancelled due to the horrible weather. So plan was cancelled and we decided to go and have some movie session. But due to the overwheming response of the movies that we want to watch, it was cancelled again. Went for dinner and after that, went for some shopping at ION Orchard. Went to Borders to read some books before heading to QiJun house for some PS3 session. Played Guitar Hero and it was fun especially being the drummer!! Went home at arond 5am and slept like a pig.
Sunday was a great meet up with ex-colleagues from Adidas. Was late due to the sleep less night. We went to MINDS Cafe at Boat Quay. Was fun playing the boardgame and I enjoyed TABOO alot! We went to Suntec food fare to have some nice food and shop around Carrefour before heading home. Eat like a pig.
I need more time!!
24hrs a day,
9hrs of work,
7hrs of sleep,
2hrs of travelling,
6hrs of eat, shit, fitness, and prepare to sleep.
No time to go out gai gai on weekdays.
Need to enjoy fully on weekend right now if not no chance in the future.
It would be very good if there are more than 24hrs a day.
Need to have a time management plan to fully utilise my time.
But a hectic day makes you alive though.
Cheers~
*.*"
WILLPOWER
Wednesday, March 17, 2010, 3/17/2010 11:08:00 PM
My life needs a fix and i'm working hard on it
If life is that simple, it would be enjoyable
But if life isn't that hard, it will be tasteless
Fix it, patch it and make it happen
All I need is WILLPOWER
Cheers~
*.*"
IT Fair weekend
Sunday, March 14, 2010, 3/14/2010 10:41:00 PM
Woohahahahaha!!
The thought of going back to office tomorrow makes me mad.
So Friday was half a day at work cause my colleagues and I went for a Charity Carnival at Gombak Camp. You just have to spent $10 for the carnival ticket and you are able to leave your office at 11am so why not right? So we reached the camp at 1pm, have some food and games and left at 2pm. So my colleague and I decided to join in the crowd at IT Fair. Was wowed by the Sony 3D soccer match.
TP letter finally came. But sad to say that when I read the letter, it reads, "Due to the overwhelming response, we are unable to offer you a place...". That was sad but it just makes me want to aim higher.
Saturday was a busy day. I typically went around the shophouses near my house to find the 21 birthday presents for WeiZheng. After that went to WZ house for his 21st Birthday. It was a fun day but would like to apologise to someone. Cause due to my insensitivity, I made it a bad day for her.
After the birthday party, AC and I proceed to Teo Heng for KTV session.
And today, met up with friends to IT fair again to squeeze with the crowd. And I typically ate 6 scoops of Hageen Daz ice cream because I have two $5 gift voucher given by WZ during his birthday celebration.
It was a productive weekend afterall.
Shit, i'm addicted to SimCity 4. NVM. Treat it as a compliment for a tired day of work.
Cheers~
*.*"
No scare
Wednesday, March 10, 2010, 3/10/2010 07:47:00 PM
Got a scare yesterday.
Was chosen for NDP parade this year as "Orderly".
Guess it is to do admin and logistic work and at the same time, have to march during the parade too.
Got the chance to wear No 1!!
And got the chance to do something different.
But was afraid that I don't have time for my study cause study is my priority this year.
So today, I recieved good news that someone has replaced me!!
No need to bother too much about time constrain anymore!!
Recently, got the chance to read another book.
It is by our grandfather Mr Lee Kuan Yew: From Third World to First.
The book was left in the office to wither.
Feeling bored, I took it up to read.
I guess this book somehow inspired me.
Like how his great vision foresee the future.
How he deals with the serious problems that we faced in the past.
And some quotes that he uses are very interesting.
Reading almost one third of the 700 plus pages.
I admit that i'm patrotic =D
Everyday when i got home, I am always excited for the mailbox.
When will the letter come that tells me whether I got in for my course or not?
Need it as soon as possible to plan my timetable.
Need it as soon as possible to see whether it will clash with my family trip to Hong Kong.
Postman please please don't be lazy.
Aim to excel~
Cheers~
*.*"
Longer weekend
Monday, March 08, 2010, 3/08/2010 01:06:00 AM
I have been living in the day longer for this weekend.
Spent Friday night pubbing at Boat Quay with I guides.
After that played China man at one of their house.
Drink till morning and went to Mc for breakfast.
Bused home after that. Took a bath and went to meet up with AC.
Went to Sentosa again!!
And weather was really freaking hot.
You can feel that it is not the usual normal heat.
It is something like scorching heat with no wind.
But I still managed to take a 30mins-45mins of nap on the bed of sand.
Really tired from the sleepless night.
We spent most of our time dipping in the sea and playing cards.
After that, went to Expo for an after CNY dinner appreciation organised by the Lion and Dragon Dance Association.
Won a small ang bao at the lucky draw segment and Mum won a Microwave oven.
Dinner was quite interesting.
Went home took a bath and it was already 1am.
Slept straight away after that cause I was freaking tired that I can't even control my eyes.
Woke up at around 1130pm and got prepared to meet up wth Yesheng.
Went to Downtown East to meet up with the rest of I-guides and head to the chalet after that.
Spent the whole day playing Werewolves game, five ten fifteen twenty, combi ten game and doing pumping as forfeit.
Got to know the different usuage of died and dead.
-You are dead.
-You have died.
Ok. English is complicated.
Tomorrow is the registration for private candidate for O lvls!!
It was such a wonderful weekend and now I am complaining about Monday blues again.
Cheers~
*.*"
Thank God
Thursday, March 04, 2010, 3/04/2010 11:17:00 PM
Thank God! Thank God! Thank God!
Thank God! Thank God! Thank God!
Thank God! Thank God! Thank God!
The slacking job in the morning,
The surprise news in the afternoon,
The nice unit outing at zhuo's kitchen high tea buffet in mid-noon,
The great time with Family for a movie- Being Human in the night,
Made my day!!
But I was F&#!ed for saying "nothing"
Unencouraging to talk to me when you don't understand my words
Cheers~
*.*"
Hear my prayers
Tuesday, March 02, 2010, 3/02/2010 07:17:00 PM
I don't want a good results anymore.
I don't want anything anymore.
I just want you to have a good health.
I pray to god. Please.
