Human just have to look at things more lightly and openly to live more happily
Monday, March 29, 2010, 3/29/2010 08:13:00 PM
Today, I went to gym and sweat like a running tap because the whole building was out of air condition. So I guess we were roasted inside out from the morning to the afternoon before the shower came and somehow, cool the temperature.
Dad didn't come and fetch me home today and so, I used the public transport. It is always good to take a bus as I just have to plug in my ear piece, absorbing the essence of the music and let my thoughts wander- into the feeling that is inside me.
There is always an uneasy feeling building inside me. The unknown future; the wants that you are afraid of not getting; the unwants that you are afraid of getting. And all this leads to stress, depression, anxiety. But then, a phrase pop up in my mind, "Human just have to look at things more lightly and openly to live more happily." Yup, I guess it is true. You don't have to haggle over stuff that spoils your day or stubborn about something that makes you mad. Take for example, my office environment seems to be warm and friendly on the outside but raging and boiling on the inside (or maybe I just think too much) and the future seems bleak ( my guess or maybe not). And how I diffuse this feeling is by telling myself that no matter what it comes, just take it as I just have to live through for 2 years, wipes my backside and walk off. I always encourage myself to gain and learn everything that I can, build up my confidence and stress level in this hostile environment and hopefully by the end of the day, I have grown stronger mentally which can make me a better person on the outside working world. So everything can be seen lightly if you are willing to let your mental take control of the situations.
The music that was played in my ears somehow brought me back to the good old days. For example, "Lucky" brought me back to the days in adventure Club, executing the training plans on every Thursday or having a great chilling bonding session in a Chalet. You just feel that it will be so great if everyone put down everything that is in their hands right now and come out and have some wonderful days like before. But time don't flow backwards, so we just have to create more of this moment to have more of this great memories.
Talking of friends, I feel that i'm not a good friend in terms of my character or emotions. Likewise, I may see others' flaws too. But what do you call someone that you only know about his merits but not his faults? I called it friendly instead of friends. By being friendly, you
tried to show only the good but hide the bad. But for true friends, you don't have to hide. You will be your genuine self and control your bad emotions by the advise of your friends. And I am very grateful to fate that I have some very funny, amusing, wild, exciting, wonderful, tenderloving friends! I believe that the best day with my friends would be during a starry night, sitting on a floor mat that is on top of a lush grasspatch, with wind blowing through our hair that has already turned white, watching our grandchildren running around, catching one another while talking about the boomzy great old days!
I guess I have talked a lot which is enough for submission as my composition. A bus ride really makes me think a lot. But it is a good thought =D
Cheers~
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