Why sometimes, when words are being said in such a way, it builds up rages in me? Is it that I am too sensitive or maybe it is just the character of that? But I thought usually I am not a sensitive person? Or is it because there is already a "rejection" feeling in me, so when things are said in such a mean way, the rejection kicks in? I have tried again and again to brush it off but then, the sarcasm just didnt stop. Just like the chinese saying goes "If a tiger don't show it true colors, you treat it as a sick cat." Something like being climbed over the head. So the only way to prevent it is to reduce the chance of hearing it. And yes that is what I am going to do.

Thinking of what I did last night, indeed I do feel that I am stupid. I am in a state of drunkness when I am not. But hearing what is said makes me feel less stupid. The ultimate choice is in you unless you tell me that you don't have a mind that makes decision? Don't you feel that it is plain stupid when you are doing something that you yourself think is not right but still, continue doing it while at the same time, blaming others for the wrong doing? That is really something that can make people laugh out loud.

I can't stay in my nonchalent attitude anymore. So be it if i'm being hated. Don't be a destroyer of my good mood. Don't ruin my status of being carefree. Stay away from me the further the better.

Hopefully, whatever that is shown is not just for some circus, if not it shows how degrading one is.

Am I over reacting?



Last night, went to Duke's chalet for a sleepover. Many happenings which I hope I don't remember and slept intermittently. So when I reached home this morning, while reading the newspaper, I started to feel lethargic and fell asleep. Woke up at 4 plus to meet up with the rest to Duke's chalet. Had some nice laughter before going off for some supper. Weather was as still as a standing pole- no wind at all and that means hot hot hot... Like me!! =DD

Duke, Happy R21 Birthday!

I read the newspaper and found this line quite interesting by Dr Goh Keng Swee, our late Deputy Prime Minister- "the only way to avoid mistakes are not to do anything. And that... will be the ultimate mistake."

Woot~ So happy for Ler that he got his dream job! Congrats bro! Next time, you know, if I go Sentosa, and I play money money, can help help right? =DD

Again, hope that the Pulau Ubin stayover plan, which we hope could bring us back to the golden days that we used to be, be fulfilled!